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Hope Amidst The Storm

In the quiet of the night, I lie awake,

A month of pain, a heart that aches.

Chronic hives and bruises, a relentless tide,

Brings waves of worry I cannot hide.

Depression's shadow looms so near,

Whispering doubts, feeding my fear.

What if this leads to something more?

A storm within my own cell, a future unsure.

Sadness wraps me in its cold embrace,

Anxiety's grip, a relentless chase.

Physical pain, a constant friend,

When will this suffering ever end?

I search for solace, a helping hand,

But it feels like no one understands.

In this battle, I stand alone,

Yearning for comfort, a place called home.

Yet within me, a spark remains,

A flicker of hope amidst the pains.

For even in darkness, light can be found,

In the depths of despair, strength is unbound.

~ €mpêråtrïzV

The People

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Sometimes...

some of the things we do...

we don't know why we're doing it.

But always,

we do things for a reason,

for every action,

there's a purpose and a motive behind it.

Some people know what they want

some are not.

Some people don't even know who they are

and yet some people think they know everything.

And some people are too proud of themselves

but some don't even have the confidence to rely on themselves.

Some people know when to fight on

and to let go;

some people hide what's inside their hearts

and yet some let it all go...

even if it's hurting somebody...

if there are some,

there will always be someone

somebody doing the opposite.

But one thing is sure,

if some are

always doing different and opposite things,

then

some for always never ends...

it holds true for many

that for always,

in all ways,

all people wanted to be loved and

all people wanted to be happy...

~ €mpêråtrïzV

Depression

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From an unlit room,

you can't see how sad the eyes are.

The shadow of bitterness

moving from the dark...

The lips smirk from the pain...

The seething anger from deep within...

The tears from despair asking for help...

Loneliness engulfed.

The need to move but can't go on...

Closing the eyes not to see what's ahead.

The painful reality of losing it.

Covering the ears not to hear what's being said...

Stabbing deep like a sword...

The heart wanted to stop

but knowing there are some counting on,

the mind can't go to a halt.

Rising again, smiling...

but losing every strength to carry on.

No one bothers to look.

Every minute,

every single day, it fades...

how long it would last,

no one seems to know...

walk... walk...

waiting for its last breath...

~ €mpêråtrïzV

#prose #depression #pain #loneliness #unlitroom #darkness

Tears

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There are tears that tell the unexpected has happened,

the things you have prayed for has been answered.
Tears that says it's finally over
and you're done with it.
Tears that shows deep and seething pain,
pain that cuts like a knife.
Wounded soul, hovers throughout the day.
The gloomy sky seems to understand its loneliness,
an advent rain to come.
No one could understand how painful it is.
Weeping all throughout the night,
silent weep but turbulent cry.
Tears of weeping no one could discern.
Cry, cry, cry, weep and weep.
In between sobs,
it was about to ask why...
cry it all out .. weep as much...
the black clouds of the night
has begun to scatter
as the rain falls wanting to let go
all through the day.
In the dark corner, tears of weeping are heard...
it seems a bottomless pit.. does not end...
only calms like a turbulent sea
that only Him can stop...
just like the tears of weeping
only His arms can comfort...

~ €mpêråtrïzV

#prose #tears #cry

HelpLess

When you seem helpless..

to voice out

what you are going through..

Not even

the nearest from you

can hear..

You keep on fighting,

but you don't know,

not really sure..

until when..

You thought you could..

but the last time you checked, maybe

you will or shall..

Now, understand this..

why the Japanese do it?..

Honors..

Humiliation..

no one they thought

can save theirs.

We can't judge..

We can't tell,

what's going on..

until you have been

into that sinking reality.

No one can tell..

the pain,

the somberness..

depression kills.

Unknowingly knowing

the fear of things

that you thought

you couldn't do.

You just have

to keep in mind..

a few

are relying on you..

You have to be rescued..

you shouldn't be alone..

Let those

that inspire you

to live,

to go on,

be with you.

Fear the thought

of knowing..

you could do that..

halting your world.

Let your heart out..

isn't it the worse

or the worst thing?

Think..

of the wonderful times..

silence..

sighing..

Help me.. Let me go..

~ €mpêråtrïzV

#helpless #prose #voice #letmego #japanese

Storm

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Rainy season's here,
sickness all over,

The storm lurks within me
in real sadness.

Typhoon, flashing floods
goes through the banks.

And I thought you came
to ease my stress.

The weather seems
joining me herein,

Through the loneliness
you have caused me.

'My Empress',
as you are calling me,

You've asked me
to claim you as my own,

You have even made me
as your own.

Your words and your face
lingers all day,

Your love seems to stay
and never ends.

Sweet words
that came out of your lips,

Where is it
and all your promises?

You even said
never to hurt me,

But what you did
paralyze my soul.

~ €mpêråtrïzV

#storm #rainy #habagat #words #love #own #you

Light

When I have come into the light

that I haven't known to notice...

When I have gained my sight,

that was the time save for genesis.

Lights started as it illuminates the room.

Day after day, a tree grows so leafy and tall.

Every single day, seeing its flowers bloom,

Yet strong winds, wanted to bring its fall.

In the passing of years, one by one its leaf kisses the ground.

The grandeur of its living follows the color of rust.

Gradually, the shadow of its dance

lost its grace.

The light gets dim for not to see the weakening rest.

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Until the Master takes out the light...

I should have followed the light

that I would see.

Light He has given to follow His realm.

~ €mpêråtrïzV

#light #trees #notice

Shunning The Past

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I am dreaming

..shunning
..running away so fast...
that I don't even want to glance back.

My heart is beating fast...
I'm gasping for air...

I don't wanna let this time pass

..shunning

My mind is hoping, it isn't true

they are coming..to get me...

run..run

I do not belong here..but it isn't fair...

regret

...

let me go..let me go...

crying..sobbing..too late...

they are coming to get me...

please...please..let me go...

out of this castle!

..' shun'...

I don't wanna go back.

they say.

"You can't get undone what's been done!"

I've tried... but I can't... I can't...

I don't wanna wake up...I don't wanna feel it...

Yes... I wanna go...I wanna go...I wanna go...

I am still here

..Stuck

..Alone

..Staring..somewhere...

then...

reality...
I

here

...

~ €mpêråtrïzV

In This Life Without YOU..

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My love, in this life without you

I am lost...

I remember you as if it was only yesterday.

The way the morning sun danced in your hair

as your smile and sweet good-morning kisses woke my world.

In this life, I have been searching for,

But cannot seem to find you.

Where are you, my love?

Was it all just a dream?

It feels so real and I see it so clearly.

It must be. My heart is yours.

I remember you perhaps from the heavens or another life.

I promised you then, I would find you...

so I will search the world over...

Until once again...

your sweet morning kisses

wake me from this slumber...

we call loneliness...

~ by Happy Mark, 2013

( a person I have known only by his pen name)

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